innocent friendship.

is it possible? can a simple friendship with a person you find nothing in common with eventually turn into "love"? well i know i never saw it this way.. tbh i never even thought of love at that age i just wanted to have fun.. never did it cross my mind, i never thought that innocent friendship would change my life.. everything about it.. so now as i sit here i can't help but reminisce about it. just the thought of it brings the biggest smile to my face, a smile that is quickly turned upside down when i remember all the pain the end of that friendship brought. it's the smallest things that make me miss it. him waiting outside of the locker room to walk me to class, him taking me to eat after practice everyday.. him calling me every morning to wake me up for school & every night JUST to say goodnight.. eventually everything about him started to be a part of me. his pain was my pain. his joy was my joy... his scent & his touch made everything else disappear, to me it made the whole world stop. .... & that's when i began to think could i be in love with my friend?

is it really possible that this innocent friendship took a 360 & turned into love ?... did this innocent friendship turn into a fairy tale... ? did this guy really sweep me off my feet with his innocent actions ?

& that's when everything went down.. the calls were still coming but it just seems like every time a girl gives a guy too much affection they don't like it... & that was my mistake.. a naive mistake .. i really really liked this guy but i never set my boundaries.. i got too close to him.. i made him & gave him my all.. but never did i think ... that me giving him my all would eventually leave me with nothing.. nothing but tears & an emptiness inside.. an emptiness i've tried to fill for over 2 years now...

through out that whole year of ups and downs .. i never knew exactly what i felt.. i didn't know if it was a strong like... or just a strong bond..

"There was once a little girl who never knew love till a boy broke her heart", that's who i was.. i didn't know it was love when i had it.. but i knew it was love when it left me...

LOVE left me, ALONE with NOTHING but PAIN & TEARS...

-- mocha cupcake